25th Anniversary of Challenger

I was not born yet on the morning of January 28th 1986. But as i watched the recording of the first loss of a launch vehicle in US history..i felt the pain of loss. The loss of confidence, astronauts, and invincibility. Always we shot for the stars and expecting the best. Watching the video set me back down to the human level. We are all human. As i read on geekologie today and described by the blogger who was 4 years old at the time; We live, we die, we learn.

We heart goes out to the crew of STS-51-L and their families.

To Lose

It is only when we have everything
we become disillusioned
carelessly thinking our world so high
that we become so confident that we can lose everything.
Only then do we realize
what loneliness truly is

I just..

Hate waiting. I just want things to be normal. Too much to ask for? It always feels like you start to lose it little by little....until...theres nothing left

As I Watched the World Go By....

So i actually have a poem in the works for this one..thought of it while i was eating lunch in the park. Been a long week, so i decided to go sit in Aldrich park and have some lunch in the sun. So i relaxed for like some 30 minutes by myself and just enjoyed the scenery. Thats when i saw it. I had been staring at a tree in the distance for a little while, just admiring its beauty and how quite it seemed. It was then i saw a leaf fall from the tip top of its branches. I watched it float slowly all the way to the ground.

I realized that i was probably the only person in the whole world who saw it. Not a significant event per-say to some, but to me the end of the circle of its life and the beginning of another. I had just sat there and watched some of the world go by. Thats when i realized that it is not often i get to see the world go by, but rather the world watches me. Constantly ignoring it and living my own life, never really stopping to admire the beauty around me.

So as i sat and watched the world go by i realized that its about the moments in life that matter the most. I often watch the lives of others go by, its those experiences we miss out on that are important. What have i missed in the last year while i sit around at UCI...watching others worlds pass right by? I feel like sometimes i am waiting too much as i watch opportunities and people pass me by. Too patient as i wait for things that may never be.

So i finished my lunch, looked one last time and walked to go do hmwk as i stopped watching and start traveling in the world that moves on by.

My only regret..

...is that i will not be alive in 3 generations to see the stars and what explorations we humans will have ventured amongst the universe.

To save the world...

...if there is one thing i would stand by for the rest of my life..its to save the world...