To Lose

It is only when we have everything
we become disillusioned
carelessly thinking our world so high
that we become so confident that we can lose everything.
Only then do we realize
what loneliness truly is

I just..

Hate waiting. I just want things to be normal. Too much to ask for? It always feels like you start to lose it little by little....until...theres nothing left

As I Watched the World Go By....

So i actually have a poem in the works for this one..thought of it while i was eating lunch in the park. Been a long week, so i decided to go sit in Aldrich park and have some lunch in the sun. So i relaxed for like some 30 minutes by myself and just enjoyed the scenery. Thats when i saw it. I had been staring at a tree in the distance for a little while, just admiring its beauty and how quite it seemed. It was then i saw a leaf fall from the tip top of its branches. I watched it float slowly all the way to the ground.

I realized that i was probably the only person in the whole world who saw it. Not a significant event per-say to some, but to me the end of the circle of its life and the beginning of another. I had just sat there and watched some of the world go by. Thats when i realized that it is not often i get to see the world go by, but rather the world watches me. Constantly ignoring it and living my own life, never really stopping to admire the beauty around me.

So as i sat and watched the world go by i realized that its about the moments in life that matter the most. I often watch the lives of others go by, its those experiences we miss out on that are important. What have i missed in the last year while i sit around at UCI...watching others worlds pass right by? I feel like sometimes i am waiting too much as i watch opportunities and people pass me by. Too patient as i wait for things that may never be.

So i finished my lunch, looked one last time and walked to go do hmwk as i stopped watching and start traveling in the world that moves on by.

My only regret..

...is that i will not be alive in 3 generations to see the stars and what explorations we humans will have ventured amongst the universe.

To save the world...

...if there is one thing i would stand by for the rest of my life..its to save the world...

Song for you to dance to in your room....just let loose

Artist: The White Panda
Song: Stereo Hands Remix

Why im excited

So gave my first quarterly engineering presentations with both my mechanical and materials science project groups. I was kinda nervous for both of them, but once i started to talk for either of them, i lost almost like 95% of the nervousness. Felt good.

Wont lie that these projects are a lot of work and will encompass the next two quarters...but it feels good to finally be using the last 4 years of my education for something other than routine homework. For the EWH (engineering world health) project of creating a SIDS breathing monitor for 3rd World countries, feels like im actually making a difference. And for the mechanical project we are creating an apparatus to develop methane hydrates for scientific purposes. If this is what engineering feels like...then i picked the right major. I hope when i get a real job i can feel like this. Cause then i would not mind going to work ever morning. Cause i would know what i am doing wont just mean a buck for someone. Maybe, just maybe...it will mean i can change someones life.





Artist: Matt Wertz
Song: I Will Not Take My Love Away