Panic of the heart

So i feel like its come back. From the depth. I was perfect and fine. Last quarter before I could feel it falling apart cause you weren't here. I could feel the feelings slowly edging away, i could feel us actually being on separate continents. I was perfect for the last 2 months (60 days). But i can feel it coming back. You asked me the other day how I am doing...and I don't know. I told you okay, but I don't know. I can feel it leaving slowly. I can feel the distance. How will we be in 90 days? I don't know. I heard this song last night and it made me think of us. I think this song actually made me feel the distance even more. I could feel the emotions of the characters while i watched them sing this song. Though they had different reasons, these lyrics are how i kinda feel.

I know I told you i was 100% okay with you going and staying longer. But the days you made those decisions, a little bit of us i felt vanished. 1 years gone. I just am afraid im building my life around something that may one day not be there.




Landslide: Glee
Heather,Naya And Gwyneth

Be more

I feel that this is my moment in life to explore. TO be more than i am now and take the risks in 5 maybe 10 years I can't cause I might be married...I might have a kid...I might not be alive. Do you ever feel it? That calling...to do stuff you have never done or dont know how to do...throw the towel in to say...F'it, Im goin to become more than this.





La Roux-BullerProof (Nacey Remix)

June 28th 2011

This ladies and gentleman...is a date I have pressed into my brain. Its a special day to me, cause its the last day that my imagination can see imagination at its true potential. I am pondering at this moment what to do. This is an important day because it is the last day the Space Shuttle will ever take off from this Earth. Atlantis. The last of its kinda. I need to see it. Where most people think, okay. I think...how do i get there. I need to see this. I need to say...i saw man kinds greatest engineering feet. I saw its last hurray. I saw its ending.




AWOLNATION-Sail

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tmblr...thats the name of the other webpage i have i haven't written on in like a year. haha

Laughing needs to write more

Wait...that title didn't make sense. So i was looking over some of my past blogs and I now realize why i like writing them. Its actually not for you. (oops, haha). Otherwise I would post it on an open forum like ...shoot whats that other one i have. Can't remember the name right now. But i was looking at the articles from 2009 and realized how much i had forgotten about Europe...about senior year. Little things. And the only reason i remember is because of this blog. (sad...i know. happens when you have the memory of a ant). So to 2011. I will beat 2010's 80 entries. So heres to the 9 i have so far! And the 73+ to come!!

Craigsters (class 2011')

ahhhh,......

I feel really sick. My throat is pretty swollen and sometimes my spit gets stuck in mt throat. My face is a little swollen too. This sucks bawws

Hair

I kinda want to shave the sides of my head like to 1mm and do a real fawk hawk. But i know its super unprofessional most likely to walk into my internship with a fawk hawk. dam. That sucks. I guess ill just stick with my minor fo-hawk for now.